SERIES:
Bit Parts (1/4)
TITLE: How Spike Got Himself A Date
AUTHOR: Mint Witch
PAIRING: S/Ho-Biscuit
RATING: R for bad, bad language and adult situations
SPOILERS: Up to, but not including, Hell’s Bells
DISCLAIMER: Only in my dreams.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hell’s Bells made me wonder “who is this chick?” and how did
Spike con her into going to a wedding.
DISTRIBUTION: Wow, really? Just let me know where so I can tell all my friends!
& http://www.fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=697692
FEEDBACK: Yes *please*! Mintwitch@yahoo.com
***
“A watched pot never boils, you know.”
The voice startles the shit out of me, and I jump, slamming my forehead into
Emily’s microwave.
Ow ow ow! God, I am such the geek. Maybe I’ll pass out now--no such luck. Still conscious. Shit. Could I fake it, or should I just
turn around and face The Hottie. The music, I meant the music. Oh shit.
“You alright? Didn’t mean to startle
you.”
Nope, I meant The Hottie. I’m less than two feet from The Hottie, and he’s
speaking to me. Shit. Why does the only male here have to be, well, a god?
“Yeah, I’m okay.” This is where I attempt casual laughter, but if my ears don’t
deceive me, what just came out of my mouth sounds more like a lunatic giggle.
Shit again. “I just didn’t hear… um…”
The Hottie is looking at me. His mouth is moving. Oooooh,
pretty, pretty mouth. Yum. Christ, he’s
speaking, what did he say?!
“Huh?”
Brilliant, fucking brilliant. Now he thinks I’m a
stupid lunatic geek, as opposed to your regular lunatic geek. Somebody kill me,
please. Oh, his mouth is moving again. Pretty…
“…kettle on for tea? Are you sure you’re alright?” He’s looking a little
concerned.
“Oh! No! I mean, yes, I’m sure I’m okay, but no I’m not making tea. It’s for
coffee. I’m making coffee.” Smooth, yep, that’s me.
“Coffee’s over there, luv.”
My head follows the movement of his hand like a slo-mo puppet, until my brain
catches up. The instant I realize he’s pointing at Emily’s ancient
CoffeeMaster, something snaps into place: My spine has suddenly returned. Yay. I can talk about coffee, yes indeedy. This girl knows
her coffee. Ahem. Full withering scorn voice:
“That is not coffee. That is an alien plot to eradicate all life on this
planet. Coffee and *that* have nothing in common.” I finally manage to unglue
my feet from the tiles in front of the stove, and point to my trusty French
Press, already locked and loaded. “*This* will be coffee, the beverage that
spawned the Renaissance and mainstay of civilization.”
I think he’s actually kinda smiling at me. The Hottie is smiling at me!
He shrugs, “It all tastes the same to me,” and heads for the aforementioned
CoffeeMaster and its evil mug sidekicks.
“Uh-uh.” I’m in The Zone now; it’s my duty as a member of the human race to
save The Hottie from the CoffeeMaster. “Nope, you entered the kitchen while I
was making coffee, you have impugned my honor, and,” I pull out my final
argument, “you have been coming to book club for, like, six months without once
being subjected to my coffee lecture. You are now morally obligated to have a
real cup of coffee.”
Okay, that came out a little weaker than usual, but he looks amused, plus he’s
been diverted from the evil CoffeeMaster. This is good.
“Your kettle is boiling.” The Hottie leans back against the kitchen island,
smirking at me.
“Oh! Right.” I turn back to the stove and lose myself
in the ritual: pour, stir, wait, liberate mugs, wait, plunge, wait. I can feel
him behind me, still and quiet, patient as the world.
The others are chatting in the living room, their chirping voices swirling as
everyone makes small talk until the last members arrive. Technically, book club
is supposed to start at
Speak, dammit!
“So, you’re here early.” Words, I said actual words! “You don’t usually show
until last, these days.”
“Yeah, well, my place is sort of, ahhh…” I turn back to hand him his cup and
catch his expression. He looks kinda embarrassed. “A mess
right now. Didn’t feel like…” He takes the mug and stares into it.
Strangely enough, I get it. “Yeah, I know what you mean. Sometimes it’s like
I’ve just gotta get out. You know, ‘anywhere but here’.”
He nods and raises his coffee, “Yeah. Well, cheers.”
“Okay everyone, time to get started!” Emily’s voice calls from the other room.
I smile and nod back at him, then we both head into the fray. Book club is
officially in session.
***
This month’s book is, thankfully, the latest Margaret Atwood, not another
fucking Oprah selection. The debate is unusually fiery, and I am thoroughly
pleased with myself when Emily finally calls a halt.
I make for the kitchen to collect my gear and find myself once again face to
face with The Hottie. He’s fondling my French Press possessively, and I can’t
help laughing.
“I think I’ve been converted.” He’s laughing with me--it’s nice. It’s the first
time in two years I’ve actually been interested in talking with someone here,
and I clutch at the feeling. Social butterfly I’m not. Anti- social butterfly
maybe. Okay, possibly just a fly.
“Well, you can buy them anywhere: Starbucks, kitchen stores, you know. And
they’re totally easy to use, you should pick one up.” Oh, yeah, that’s the way
to kill a conversation, you geek. No where to go from here.
He hands me the press, and I make a break for the sink to clean it out. He’s
still watching me, despite the back-turned, running water action. Huh. I shut
off the water and face him again, fussing with a towel to avoid those eyes. Oh
me oh my, what a girl wouldn’t do for those eyes. Avoid the eyes at all costs.
Ooooh, yum!
“Maybe I will ‘pick one up,’ then. Do they sell ‘em a bit smaller?” I yank my gaze away from his crotch to find him staring at
the press with a calculating expression.
“Hmm? Oh, yeah, small enough to fit in your pocket
even.”
“Well, then, I will definitely have to get one of those. And thanks for...” He
waves a hand toward the dirty mugs.
“You’re welcome; I’m all about converting the heathens.” I laugh at my own lame
joke. “Um, if you want, if you don’t have someplace to be, I mean, there’s a
really good café nearby. We could… oh, god, I can’t believe I’m still
speaking.”
Oh, god, I can’t believe I’m still speaking.
This time he’s definitely laughing at me, not with me. But that’s okay, ‘cause I’m trying to die. Please god, let me die. Maybe if I
close my eyes, I’ll die.
“Alright.”
Huh? I’m dead and in Heaven? That can’t be right, I’m pretty sure there’s going
to be a hand-basket involved when I go to my just reward. Possibly
a trash chute. I open my eyes. Well, unless Emily’s kitchen is Hell, I’m
not dead.
“Oh. Okay, just let me get my stuff.” I start cramming my crap into my pack; I
think I’m going to hyperventilate. Breathe, breathe, in pink, out blue. “N’kay,
I’m ready.” I hoist the green monstrosity onto my shoulder and attempt to look
friendly and oh-so-casual. Hard to do when you’re carrying 20 lbs. of black
lipstick and assorted Goth paraphernalia. Trust me.
“After you.” Emily and
It’s nice, though. Walking, I mean--with The Hottie. He doesn’t seem to be the
type who needs to fill up silences with words. He never says much, actually,
compared to the chirpers. He used to come with Dawn, after Joyce passed away,
but she hasn’t come with him for months. Now that girl, she was a world-class
talker. She could fill whole continents with words. I don’t think she’s ever
stopped babbling long enough to realize that there are, like, hello! other people on the planet, here.
Still walking, but now we’re passing the kitchen entrance of
“Hey, sweetie. You’re a little late tonight!”
Shit, shit, shit.
“Actually, Jess, we were heading for…” I can only wave vaguely towards the next
block as I desperately try to ignore my companion’s curious look. Fab. Now he’s gonna think I’m an alcoholic lunatic geek. And
let’s not forget stupid.
“What’re you talking about, girl? It’s Thursday! You don’t show on a Thursday
and
She’s right.
“Alright, Jess, geez, but just for a minute. You don’t
mind, do you?” I’m begging him, but I’m not sure what I actually want him to
say. Yes? No? Fortunately, he again seems more amused than anything. Good to
know he’s amused by my mortification. What will the lunatic do next? Stay tuned
for wacky fun with the crazy chick.
“Mind going to a bar? Not likely, pet. Not my usual
type o’ place, but no harm trying someplace new, is there?”
Jess holds the door for us, I’m pretty sure just to get a little closer to The
Hottie, and I lead the way into the kitchen.
“Hey, Manny,
“Hola, bruja! Not too bad, not deported yet. How was
it tonight?” He’s also a nice guy, and reads as much as I do.
“Pretty good; Margaret Atwood.”
“Ah, I like her, too. You’ll drink Scotch then? Jess’ll bring you dinner
in a few.” There are definite disadvantages to being a regular, at least when
you’re trying to get into someone’s pants. No, I’m not trying to… who am I kidding, of course I am. This is where I bow to the
inevitable. Besides which, Manny’s smirking at me like my hormones have
installed a neon sign on my forehead. And he’ll help.
“Thanks Manny.” I throw him a wink, and he nods back, then
snags Jess. Yup, he knows exactly what I’m thinking. Manny will keep her
Hottie-stealing tush busy while I attempt to complete the pass. I love Manny.
We’re on my turf now, and I’m starting to feel less like a blithering idiot. Deep breath, girding of loins, onward to the bar.
I’m practically running when we reach the stools;
“Hey
“Spike, eh? Have a pull-up.” Spike sits. How cool is that? “What can I getcha?”
“Nice place.” He’s looking around and nodding slightly.
I wonder what he sees? I’m trying not to stare, but I
can’t help myself. It looks like
Spike’s eyebrow twitches as he spins back to face the bar, taking in my smokes.
I’m not gonna tell him; shit, I’m shocked that
Drink, matchbook, and saucer appear on the bar without a word.
“Sooo…” Spike waves his cig at the bar in general, “are we not in
“Nope.”
Spike just nods and picks up his drink, looking around again. “
I think
I take a moment to collect myself, indulging in a little Reflective Surface
Disorder with the mirror behind the bar, when my thoughts skid to a halt. My
hair looks okay, Bauhaus black this week, make-up intact, Hottie… Hottie is…
Not a guy. Breathe. Shit. Fuck. I hate my life, I
really fucking hate my life. Fuckfuckfuck. Wait,
regroup. Okay. Not dead yet.
Spike is frozen solid beside me. I can feel him staring at me in the mirror,
waiting for me to freak out or something. Now what do I say? Soooo,
Spike, how long you been dead? What’s a dead guy like you doing in a
place like this? How the fuck does a vampire end up escorting a 15-year-old
girl to a fucking book club? There is nothing normal about this, nothing. Fuck.
The first guy I ever bring to
“So, uh, Spike. I’ve been wondering,” think fast, faster, what have I been
wondering? He’s waiting for your brilliant conversational gambit, dumb-ass,
“why doesn’t Dawn come to book club anymore?”
Wrong question. How was I supposed to know?
He takes a sip of his drink--he’s so stalling--and shrugs. “Things are tough
for the Bit, right now. It’s complicated.” Another shrug.
Another drink. I have no idea what to say. I am so not
getting laid tonight.
“How did you get into the whole thing anyway? You don’t seem like the book club
type.” Apparently I’ve been forgiven, because it sounds like he’s actually
interested. Yippee Skippy. Do I want the vampire to be interested? I think I
do. Yes, I really, really do. I am so fucked. I wish.
“Yeah, well, my ex-roommate was into it and dragged me along. She thought I was
terminally introverted and was always trying to get me to ‘get out, it’ll be
fun, you’ll meet new people.’ For the most part, I’d rather slit my wrists than
meet new people, but, well, I ended up liking it. Anyway, she got married and
moved to D.C., and I kept going. So, once a week, I crawl out of my bat-cave
and make social about books with a bunch of soccer moms.”
Excellent, I’m speaking, and he hasn’t yawned once. Maybe that’s because he
doesn’t need to breathe. Think positive, he could actually be interested. Yeah, interested in drinking my blood and leaving my dead body in
an alley. That’s not exactly the Power of Positive Thinking, is it?
“How ‘bout you?”
Another bad question. Shit. Well, buddy, you shouldn’t
ask a question you’re not prepared to answer, so there.
He finishes his drink, and signals
“My, ah, a friend, ah…Dawn… she’s… her…” Boy, he’s like, totally incoherent.
This is kinda fun. He gulps down the rest of this drink too. “Her mum and her used to go, then Joyce, you know, died and she still
wanted to, to be close to her mum, like, so…”
“She asked you?” This is kinda really fun. I think he’s actually squirming.
“Yeah, so what?” Ooh, Mr. Defensive. “Me ‘n’ Joyce were friends, I’m very close to the Summers women, friend of
the family like.” Oh my god. Revelation. Epiphany. Endless Dawn prattle clicking
into place in my brain. This is The Guy Into
Dawn’s Sister. Shit. I’m so stupid. I knew Joyce and Dawn from my first club
meeting, I’ve seen Spike, ye only club male, every week for 6 months, the first
four with freaking Dawn, and I never put it together. I am an idiot.
And I’m mad. Dawn talked about Spike and her sister non-stop for weeks.
Admittedly, Dawn talked about everything non-stop. You couldn’t pay that kid to
shut up. But still, the hottie vampire that may just want to kill me is into
somebody else. Yep, I’m mad. I’m also leaping headlong into a massive
assumption, but considering Mr. Defensive’s little hem and haw fest, I think
I’m justified. And mad. Did I mention mad? What kind of homicidal hottie
vampire goes for coffee cum Scotch with a strange woman he’s known for months
when he’s carrying a torch for someone else? I may be insane, but I’m pissed.
“Soooo… did you and what’s her name? Dawn’s sister? Ever get together?” Score!
Spew alert! He’s actually choking. That was extremely satisfying. “You okay?”
Oh baby oh baby oh, I am so bad.
I practice my innocent face while
Spike seems a little confused. How ‘bout that, hmm?
“Um, yeah, well, but it, uh, didn’t work out.”
“Oh, that’s too bad. Dawn seemed to think you two had a lot in common.” I’m practically
cooing. I don’t even care that the homicidal vampire is a total hottie anymore.
I smell blood on the water, sharks are circling, and I’m going in for the kill…
Jess horns in with the food. Pfft, foiled again! But I’ll be damned if Jess
gets a chance at The Hottie first. Get thee behind me, slut! I may be catty and
mean, and he may be the evil undead, but
Jess practically uses her breasts to put the little plates and bowls on the
bar. If looks could kill, the tramp would have burst into flames already. I’m
virtually growling and this is not my happy smile I’m wearing. Bitch. Get away
from my Hottie!
Spike, on the other hand, is laughing his ass off. What the fuck? Did I say
that out loud or something? Focus. No, I’m pretty sure I didn’t say it out
loud.
He’s looking right at me, though, nibbling Manny’s yummy bar treats through his
grin. Now I’m the one who’s confused. Drink. Eat. Make busy. What just happened
here?
Jess finally gives up and heads back to the kitchen. About
time. Now I’m just left with a vague feeling of embarrassment and a
grinning vampire. Jess, come back! What do I do now? I’ve pretty much done
everything possible to fuck this up. If this is a date, Spike must think I’m
the date from Hell. I really am a lunatic.
“Sooooo…” Spike is purring at the date from Hell. I think I just creamed
myself. Take me now, evil torch bearing undead! Meow. “How
‘bout you? You single?” He’s practically batting his eyelashes at me. Long, long eyelashes over blue, blue, drown-in-me blue eyes.
“Yes.” The word comes out as a pant.
He does that male gaze thing and I suddenly feel very, very naked. “Really? How’s that?” Oh god oh god
oh god.
“Um, you know.
“She’s from
“Hey, really? I liked Seattle, plenty of nightlife.” I
love
“Um, yeah. I mean, cool. Um,
anyway.” And now I’m gonna mess this up again because I can’t think of
anything, and I mean *anything* to say.
Apparently, it doesn’t matter. Purring sexy voice is gone, and Spike is
rambling happily on about garage bands, music, punk versus grunge, and all
things guy.
I am forced to interrupt him, though, when it becomes obvious that he’s biased,
as Motherlovebone is inarguably superior to Pearl Jam, and comparing British
Punk to New York Punk is beyond futile.
We’re still arguing when
“Um. Yeah. I uh. I should.
You wanna come in and have sex?” Shit. Did I just say that out loud?
“Yes, you did.”
“Uh.”
“Vampires have really good hearing. Humans sometimes sub-vocalize
certain thoughts. Vampires get to hear them.” That’s a really evil grin he’s
wearing. What’s with the tres evil grin?
Oh god no. He heard me say…
“Get away from my Hottie? Yeah.”
“Oh god.” I’m really gonna die now.
“I dunno, it was sorta flattering, pet.”
“Oh. OH! Um, good. So?”
“I think I would.”
“Okay. Yes, okay.” Keys, door, breathe, breathe. I’m so glad I don’t have a
roommate anymore. “C’mon in, make yourself comfortable.” I just invited a
vampire into my home. What am I doing? I wish I had a roommate. I am so fucked.
I hope. Yep, still insane, certifiable lunatic on the loose. Hell, he’s the one
who should be scared, there’s no telling what I may do. I’ll keep walking
forward, that’s always a good plan.
He follows me in as I make my rounds, keys on table, Docs under, coat in
closet. Coat. “Can I take your coat?” I’m holding the
coat. Hang. Up. The Coooat… meow. Let go of the coat and step away from the
closet.
And right into The Hottie. Oh god. He’s right against my back and his hands are
sliding over my hips. It’s been way too long since anything has felt this good.
I don’t even know what to do. Again, not a problem for him, because suddenly
he’s right against my front and my back is slamming against the closet door.
Mouth, hands, tongue, lips, nose, hands, lips, hands, oh dear god *hands*.
Hands everywhere and lips following, so good, ouch, yum, there, oh there is
good too, oh oh oh…
“Oh, bed, oh god, uh over there, oh yeah, room bed.”
“Uh huh.”
“Okay, yes, there!” Mmmmm… here.
***
One ruined pair of tights, two rug-burned knees, several orgasms, and a
partridge in a pear tree later, I’m happily smoking in bed with a vampire. Fuck
you, Smoky the Bear. I don’t even remember how we got to the bedroom. I’m such
a slut. Yay me! On second thought, getting laid once every two years isn’t
exactly world-class sluttage, is it? But Ma, I gave it up on the first date!
Well, sorta date. Actually, not anything resembling a date.
“Do you think this counts as a date?”
“No, pet, I wouldn’t say it does.”
“Cool.” Yep, I’m a slut. Whee!
Why is he looking at me like that? He almost looks evil, again. Shit. Is this
where he kills me and leaves my body to rot? Fuck. I wouldn’t even be missed
until next Thursday. I am so fucked. The wages of sin.
Really, really good sin.
“So, pet, you busy on Saturday?” Yep, he’s gonna kill me now. What do I say? I
thought only the good die young. Way to be an exception to
the rule, dumb-ass.
“Uh, no.” Shit! I should have said, ‘yes, my priest is
coming to exorcise the evil undead’ or something. But hey, look on the bright side, if I hafta die at least I get to die happy. Good-bye
cruel world, I’ll miss you.
“Wanna go to a wedding?”
SERIES:
Bit Parts (2/4)
TITLE: These Things Never End Well
AUTHOR: Mint Witch
PAIRING: S/Ho Biscuit
RATING: NC-17, for smut, bad language and adult situations
SPOILERS: Through Hell’s Bells
DISCLAIMER: Only in my dreams.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hell’s Bells made me wonder “who is this chick?” and how did
Spike con her into going to a wedding.
DISTRIBUTION: Wow, really? Just let me know where so I can tell all my friends!
& http://www.fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=697692
FEEDBACK: Yes *please*! Mintwitch@yahoo.com
***
You wanna know a big word? Not a stupid big word, like
antidisestablishmentarianism, but a meaningful big word, a word so packed chock
full of stuff, that it has to be big enough to contain
it all? Ignominious. You can try to define it, but
ultimately you fail because the sound of the word itself contains meaning. So,
let’s try to use it in a sentence, shall we? How about: My ignominious fucking
exit from a perfect fucking stranger’s wedding fucking pissed me the fuck off.
How about that, boys and girls?
“Let me go, you shit!” I wrench my arm out of Spike’s grasp, pulling away from
him. I’ll fucking walk home, thank you very much. No, I’ll stomp home. I take a
perverse satisfaction in the solid thump my boots make every step of the way.
Stomping as hard as I can, I march down the tiled hallway, just to hear that
sound echo.
“Stupid fucking fuck. Fuck.” Every stomp now gets a
fuck. Fuck thump fuck thump. “Stupid fucking hottie. Stupid stupid stupid fuck fuck fuck.”
“Nice vocabulary, pet.”
“And YOU! You can just fuck off! Okay? Okay! I’m not stupid. I know what this
was about, but Jesus Fucking Christ, could you be just a little less—“
“Evil?” I stomp and thump back to where he’s slumped against the wall and get
right up into his evil undead face.
“Obvious.” The word is a snarl, and I know my expression is ugly--but I don’t
care anymore. “I know the deal, you asshole. But the tonsil-hockey-- excuse me
while I VOMIT, by the way--was a little much. And this!”
I wave my already bruising wrist in his face, “I’m not a fucking handbag! You
don’t just grab me on your way out!” I’m shrieking,
I’m so pissed off. I just want to snatch his cig and put it out in his eye.
“Dunno about that, pet. I did last time.” Oh. Oh. Time goes all cliched and
stands still just for me. I’m not breathing, I’m not thinking, my heart’s not
beating, he did not just say that. Oh no. But my leg is moving quite fast, yes
really very fast. Right up until the split second that my knee slams into his
crotch. Oh goody, now he’s moving and it’s the evil undead’s turn to shriek
like a little girlie girl.
I retrieve his smoke from the floor and indulge in a little Marlboro Moment,
inclusive of the sight of Spike writhing in pain. Then I kick him again. Same
place, different blunt object. Steel toes rock.
Time to pull a Last Action Hero and fade away. Not so
good at the fading, but I can stomp with the best of them. Watch me stomp, big
boy.
All the way around the corner, where I hide. Scrunched
against the wall, I light up another off Spike’s
cherry, grinding the cashed smoke into the linoleum with my boot. My hands are
shaking. Shit. I will not cry. I am not going to cry. Dammit!
I’m not stupid; I’m a fucking idiot. It took me, like, two seconds to figure
out why I was here. I should have bailed right then. But then there was the
groping and the face sucking, and the complete lack of anything resembling a
brain. Shit. This entire wedding date thing has been one giant cluster-fuck.
Dawn didn’t even fucking recognize me, and my competition is a freaking
radioactive leprechaun. Christ, why do guys always go for those little
miniature girls? She’s like three feet tall, for Christ’s sake. What’s that
about?
How do I let things get so fucked up? I could be rebound girl. I could even
enjoy it. Hell, I would have been happy as one-night-stand girl. But this. I am not this. I am not a handbag.
“I’m sorry.”
“Eeeeeeeeeeyaaaargh!” Ow ow ow! Why do I always do
that? And, shit, why does he always sneak up on me? He should wear a little
bell or something, I swear.
Besides, what was that? I’m sorry, ooooh. Real sincere, watch the ho- biscuit just melt into the baby blues, not. Not this
time. What, am I supposed to respond to the lame apology or something? Uh uh. Ignore him, don’t answer, don’t
look. Pout. Try not to fucking cry. But do not answer.
“I am sorry, you know.” He slouches against the wall beside me. “It’s just…
hard.”
Ignoring the vampire, la la la, not listening, I’m not listening. Of course I’m
listening. Chick here, tale of romantic woe, et
cetera. Poor, wounded hottie. No, don’t feel sorry for
the heartbroken fiend who fucked you blind then dragged you to a wedding to
make his ex jealous. Shit. At least I can try to look like I’m ignoring him.
“Did it work?” I can’t help it. It’s like a car accident--you have to look. In
my case, speak. Give me details, buddy, details. I want to know how much glass
is on the road and that you are bleeding heavily. You had better be bleeding.
“No.”
“Good.” Serves you right, you bastard.
“Wanna get a drink?” It’s like,
“Yeah, okay.”
***
“Schoo, then, I tell her, I tell her ‘that was the plan,’ y’know I’m e- evil,
but I won’t … I don’t know why, it’s wrong or some sodding crap like that.”
Spike is smashed. I can tell because his head is on the bar. I’m perceptive
that way. Poor, evil Spike. I’ve never seen the inside
of a crypt before. Now I never will. Poor, poor me.
“That’s sooooo ssssad.” I hope I don’t fall off my stool. That might hurt.
Whee! Everything is all whirly. Spin, spin, like a record
baby right ‘round… ugh.
“Spike?”
“Yeah?”
“I think I’m gonna puke now.” Wow, vampires move fast. And hey! Look at
that, there’s three of him. Why didn’t he tell me he could do that? Can I have
the one that’s not in love with a leprechaun? Poor, poor me.
“You shoulda warned me you were a weepy drunk, pet.”
Sniff. Fuck off, you evil man thing, evil you person like.
“Bleeeeeeargh-ooof.” I like tile, so cool, soothing.
It feels good, soft and pretty, only not. He’s patting my head. That’s nice. “I
wanna go home.” Home home home, home is where the
heart is… I have never been so completely shit-faced in my entire life. I knew
there was a reason people don’t start drinking at
I feel better. Maybe I could market this: Order now and not only will we send
you the complete guide to puking up your intestines through your nose, but you
also get this commemorative shot glass completely free! That’s right, FREE!
My house, we’re home, that was fast. This car thing could really catch on.
Spike as trendsetter: pretty soon everyone will want one. One,
two, three steps to my front door. Knocking on Heaven’s door but I don’t
have to because I live here. Who stole my keys? Wow, the Hottie stole my keys,
how did he do that?
Hello, bedroom, I brought the Hottie back, see? Don’t get excited, I don’t
think he’s staying, our first real date didn’t go so
well. I kicked him in the balls and I think I got vomit on his shoes.
Hello bed. Hello pillow. Hello soft blankies. Hello-
“President Roosevelt.”
“What?” I’m trying to reach over the side of the bed but it keeps moving
away. Stop that!
“He fell off the bed.” What’s his malfunction? President Roosevelt fell off the
bed, and he can’t get back up on his own. Well duh! I can’t just leave him
there, he’ll be lonely.
“Is this what your after, then?” he’s staring at the
Prez like, like, like something stary and rude. Don’t be rude to the
Commander-in-Chief.
“Gimme!” All is well with world again. Back in bed with my best boyfriend. I never even notice
Spike leave. At least, I hope he leaves, because I snore really bad when I’m drunk.
***
NO! Let me go, please, I can’t move. Please, please let me go, oh god. Darkness, noise, voices screaming, screaming, screaming. Get
out, get away, run, please god help me, help me…
“AAAAAAAAAAHHH!” My own strangled scream wakes me, and
the arm around my waist tightens as I struggle against it. Oh god, where am I,
what-
“Shhhhh, shhh, it’s okay, pet, it’s just me, it’s
alright, okay, shh.” Spike’s words puff against the back of my neck in cool
little gusts. “I gotcha, it’s okay.”
Shudders wrack my body, and I gasp for air, replaying that night in my head.
The chaos: screaming, blood, an endless strobe of destruction. I’m okay, I’m at
home, in bed, I’m not there, it’s over.
“You alright?”
“Yes, I’m sorry.” Oh god, he must think I’m a complete freak. Honestly,
though, I’m still too scared to really care. I’m just grateful to have someone
here to pull me out of it. I snuggle back against his body, hugging his arm
tighter around me. Glad he stayed.
“You wanna talk about it? I know a thing or two about nightmares.” His voice is
soft and concerned, blurry with sleep.
“No, I just… something bad happened a couple of years
ago, and I still have dreams about it, I guess. I’m sorry,
I didn’t mean to freak you out or anything.” I can’t believe I’m apologizing to
a vampire about my nightmares. How surreal is this?
“Sure?”
“Yeah, it’s just-” how can I possibly explain this one? “This company I used to
work for, they, uh, it was like a lab, they did animal experimentation and
stuff…” Demons crashing out of lock-down, ripping and tearing through the Game
Theory Lab, Johanna’s body eviscerated, organs strewn across the terminals.
“And some of the, uh, larger subjects got out once. It was really scary.”
Running, running, hiding under the stairs, staring at an arm just laying there, attached to nothing, the wedding ring gleaming
faintly in the dark. Last mad dash, strangers lifting us out the through the
elevator shaft, just a few of us left, and all I could think was ‘you bitch, I
told you, you stupid, stupid bitch, why didn’t you ever listen to us,’ not even
remembering that she was long dead, just the mad stream of rage and fear and
adrenaline.
The shakes ease, his cool hand soothing butterfly touches up over my stomach to
my breast and back, gentle sweet strokes. I press my back even harder against
his torso, yes, like that, make it go away. He seems to understand, pressing
soft kisses against my neck and shoulders, his fingers plucking my nipple.
Warmth steals through my stomach, and I nestle my head firmly into the hollow
of his shoulder.
“Better?”
“Yes, much, oh, please.” The hand on my breast brushes down over my abdomen,
barely stirring the fine hairs, circling my navel. “Good, that’s good.”
“You want this?”
“Yes, oh, yes, make it go away, make it better, like that,” his fingers push
into my vulva, seeking and finding my clit, stroking, pinching, sending heat
tingling through my nerves. His leg presses between mine from behind, nudging
my thighs apart. I can feel his erection against my ass and I cream, ready, oh
so ready, for another ride. “Now, do it, fuck me, Spike, I need you.”
“I gotcha baby,” and in one smooth thrust his cock is pushing into me, driving
away the lingering fear. Oh, god, yes, so good, so very, very good. His hand is
still working at my clit, and my skin tightens, stretching over my muscles, my
body moving with his in the rhythm of sex, bringing me back to life. I’m alive,
oh, god, yes, I’m alive!
“God yes, Spike, I’m cumming, oh yes, please!”
“That’s it, lover, come for me, I’ve got you.” His
panting groan pushes me further, harder, and I’m screaming my orgasm to the
entire neighborhood, thrashing in ecstasy, my flesh a single throbbing nerve.
“MMmmmmmm…” so good.
He nudges me, using his leverage to roll me over onto my stomach. His arms
brush up under mine, forcing them up above my head as his legs press my thighs wider,
and my hips tilt up, his cock still firm in my vagina. Ooooh,
yeah. I turn my head a little to the side, trying to see him still
fucking me. Oh god, he is so hot. He looks back at me from under heavy eyelids,
his lips smiling softly. I clench tight around his penis, aroused by the sight
of him pale and gleaming in the dawn light that filters through the heavy
drapes.
His muscles shift like water under all that pretty white skin, each movement
bringing an answering wave of pleasure in my own body. He pushes and pulls,
fucking me harder, and I can’t look at him anymore. I have to bury my head in
the pillow just to hold on. The smug bastard knows he’s beautiful and chuckles,
the liquid sound igniting another fire in me.
“Tell me, pet, tell me, talk to me. Do you like this,
does this feel good?”
“Oh god, yes, it feels so good.” How the fuck am I
supposed to talk? I can’t even think!
“What do you want?” He’s leaning over me, pressing me into the bed so he can
whisper in my ear. He goes still.
“I want you to fuck me, Spike, just like this, fuck me, please!” Bucking up
onto my hands and knees, I force myself back onto his cock as hard as I can, my
ass tipped up.
His answer is a thrust so hard, I lose my balance and
have to grab the headboard to keep from cracking my head on it. The dance
begins for real this time, a play of muscles in opposition, bodies crashing
into each other. I let go with one hand to pull and pinch at my nipple and he
mimics the motion, hand on my clit, relentless.
“Oh god oh god oh god yes yes please now, let me please, oh Spike yes, I want,
I need, pleeeeeeeease!” I’m soaring, flying, dying, oh god, “Don’t ever stop,
please, don’t ever stop! Aaaaaaaaeeeee!!!”
“Gah!” With a rush, he comes in me, his hips losing the rhythm, his arm
crushing my limp body against him. When his own tremors ease, he lowers us back
down into the mattress, spooned together again.
“Don’t worry pet, I’m not going anywhere. At least, not until
sundown.”
***
“the sound of you struttin’ in those tight pants in those tight pants strut
strut struttin’ Iggy baaaaaybaaaay…”
What the fuck?! Ow ow owie, oh my poor brain, I’m so very sorry. I’ll never do
it again, I promise. Make the horrible noise stop! Hide from the hideous
pounding…
“boom swagger swagger boom boom boom!!!”
Oh god, I’m being burgled by surfer punks. Just take the stereo and go. Go
quietly, please. I don’t need material possessions, I need quiet, soothing
quiet. And darkness. Soothing quiet
darkness. And Percocet. Soothing
quiet dark prescription medication. The surf criminals can have anything
they want as long as I don’t have to get out of bed.
“…e…” Or open my eyes. Note to self, do not open your eyes. And double bonus
Yahtzee, if I don’t open my eyes then I can’t identify the culprits so maybe
they won’t kill me. I’m a glass-half-full kinda gal, yep.
“I could talk like that I hear her going rrrooww rrrooww I see her sittin’ see
her…”
If only they would quit singing. Please god, make it stop. Thank you. Blessed quiet. I’ll buy a new stereo. No harm, no foul.
“Drink this.” Wow, they’re British Surf Burglars. Why does that ring a bell? If
only the booming echoes in my head would go away so I could think, but no, it
just keeps getting louder and louder and…
“eep.” Maybe I’m hallucinating. That’s it, I have
severe alcohol poisoning, and I’m in the hospital having my stomach pumped. The
Alice in Wonderland surf burglars are delusions conjured by my sick, sex
obsessed brain.
Ooh, sitting up now, kinda. I did not do that. The Red Queen did that. No, I
don’t wanna play croquet. But she can have my head, please somebody cut off my
head.
Cool glass against my lips, liquid, swallow-
“BLECH!” Fuck, what was that? White King, argh! No, Spike,
blond person sitting on my bed trying to poison me, fucking-A. No surf burglars, Spike, still here, despite the slightly blurry
freak action. Oh my god. Did we? Yup. We did. Oh god.
“Hair o’ the dog that bit ya, pet.”
“Christ, just bite me already. You don’t need to poison me too.” That
would have been a lot more convincing if 1. I didn’t sound like a gelded mouse,
2. wasn’t buck-ass naked, and 3. clutching
President Roosevelt to my chest. Nothing denotes authority like a big fuzzy
teddy bear. I’m such the geek.
I check Hello Kitty for the time: after four. Judging by the light, it’s PM,
but Sunday or Monday? How long have I been dead? Who cares.
I feel like shit, and I have the Hottie on my bed staring at me like an evil
candy striper. Wasn’t that a movie?
“Ergh.” Dropping my defensive teddy shield, I attempt
a covert Army crawl off the other side of the bed. It would be sneakier if I
could use my arms, but my face will have to do. Whoa, I could sell this one to
the National Enquirer: Woman escapes helpful vampire by dragging herself away
with her lips. Fame and fortune would soon follow, I’m sure.
I don’t care how stupid I look, I have to get to the
bathroom. I have an important meeting scheduled with my toothbrush. Not too
mention that I probably stink to high Heaven. Shit. I don’t understand anything
that has happened in the past however many hours, but my current state of
completely gross hung-over freakishness pretty much guarantees another two-year
hiatus in my sex life. God, my life sucks. Fuck.
“You need some help?” Smug, evil, non-hung-over, gorgeous
fucking smug vampire.
“No!” Gargh! Oh my head! Note to self: quit talking. Oh god oh god. “Just let
me die.” Whimper.
“Right then, I’m off.” Oh god, the bed’s moving, don’t throw up, hang on
sister, just hang the fuck on.
***
I should have food. I remember having food when I had a roommate. Most people
own food, right? And not just 20 cans of Cheez Whiz and some Ho-Hos. Don’t ask.
Time for a full inventory of the Goth kitchen. I’m
clean, semi-clothed, and hungry. Really, really hungry.
Starving. Feed me, Seymour!
“Drink this.” Déjà vu! Where’s the rabbit hole, Alice? Murderous hell- fiends
leave notes, who knew? Okay, it’s instructions to drink red, viscous, and vile
looking blender drinks, but still, a note is a note. It’s not Cheez Whiz, so I
guess red&vile just became dinner. I bet it’ll taste better with a yummy
Ho-Ho side dish. And some vodka. Yup, then I can have
a big ol’ heapin’ helpin’ of self pity for dessert. Oops, maybe not vodka.
Vodka is apparently included in the red&vile package. I’m thinking this is
the hair of the dog from before. Before Spike left. Oh
god, I’m so lame. How did I get into this?
I should never have spoken, never responded to the pretty man. Never again. From this day forward I am deaf, dumb, and
blind. I’ll wallow for a few days, reliving every second of the world’s
shortest affair, and re-emerge a stronger, less pathetic, deaf mute. A whole new me. An entirely celibate deaf mute me. I could
even join a convent, an order of silent celibates. Who probably don’t smoke or
drink either. Not a convent, then. I could commit murder and go to the Big
House, that’s an idea. But I’d have to kill someone and hello! gross. I’m so pathetic. And a little tipsy
from the dog hair. Tipsy and pathetic. I should
turn on a light, but light is not conducive to effective wallowing.
“You should turn on a light, pet. You’ll burn out your eyes.” Spike! It’s
Spike! Beautiful, sexy, here, Hottie Spike! And he brought groceries!
“Spike!” I can fly! And climb the vamp like a jungle
gym. Yum.
“Mmph.” Shut up, I’m using your mouth for more
important things. Hey, it’s fair: my house, my rules.
“Mmmm, Spike…” He feels so good, I’m clean and brushed, and I want this, I need
this. Please god let me have this. “You came back!”
“Fuck, woman, you have no food, I couldn’t let you starve to death. You need to
eat.” Hee! He cares whether or not I die of starvation. That’s so cute! I lo… oh god no. I am not falling for him. I can’t! Not like
this, not with the whole torch thing going on. It’s a fling, a fling, damn it!
I’m a slut and this is a fling. Oh god no, what do I do?
My voice comes out as a whisper, “I’ll eat you.”
“Bloody hell…” His groan vibrates along my bones. I suck his lower lip into my
mouth and bite down. The grocery bag is on the floor, leaking something onto my
rug, but nothing matters, nothing but this, my need, his desire. I will give
him back when I have to, but I’m going to keep him for as long as I can. Oh god
I am so fucked. There is no way this will end well.
SERIES:
Bit Parts (3/4)
TITLE: The Id Goes Marching On
AUTHOR: Mint Witch
PAIRING: S/Ho Biscuit
RATING: NC-17, because my ego has been beaten unconscious and my superego has
fled to
SPOILERS: Through Hell’s Bells
DISCLAIMER: Let’s just pretend for a moment that he does indeed belong to me,
shall we? I can visualize it clearly, but that could be the drugs.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: At this point I have no idea what I’m doing or why, but I can’t
seem to stop.
DISTRIBUTION: If anyone wants this I may just faint dead away. But feel free to
ask, I could come to any second.
FEEDBACK: Give it to me baby, uh huh uh huh! Mintwitch@yahoo.com
***
I’m grinning like an idiot; I can tell because I feel like my face is going to
crack apart any second now. La la laaa! Go team!
Spike rumbles. Rumble-y Spike. Whee!
“I wasn’t gonna do this, pet.” Poor vampire, he sounds all conflicted.
I know that part: I was there for the drunken monologue. “I’m sorry.” I don’t
think he believes me. It could be the laughter.
“No, really, I am.” Still not convincing. I should
really stop with the happy giggles. Not giggles, chuckles. I don’t giggle. Yes,
I do. Fuck. “But- - oh dear god Spike, I’m so not sorry.” I am so not sorry.
That was amazing. That was better than amazing. “That was amazing.”
“Thanks for that, at least.” I can’t hear so much as feel his reluctant
laughter. Rumble-y Spike laughter. Yum.
We should get up, do something about the mess on the
floor.
“Spike, off.”
“Le’ go my ass and I will.” Oops.
He is so fucking beautiful. Even just pulling his pants up, he’s gorgeous. And
I feel like an idiot for telling him to get off me, because there is no way in
hell I can stand up. I can’t freaking move. Ooh, baby,
twinkle at me. Love the shy smile, love the twinkle.
“Nice view.” Bastard. I’m splayed out on the rug with
what smells like diet cola in my hair and he’s making fun of me. Not nice, not
nice at all.
“Shut up and help me. Please?” Signature evil grin, but at least he gets me on
my feet.
“Thank you.” Could I get any goofier? I just want to stare at him and grin
until I die. And have more sex; we must not forget the sex parts. Wrenching my
gaze away from the shirtless wonder that is Spike -shirtless? What happened to
his shirt? Oh. I happened to his shirt- I make a decision.
“Okay, here’s the plan: You are going to rescue the bag and find homes for
whatever it is you bought. I am going to locate my pants and attempt to
Bissell. Then I am going to take you on a real fucking date, only you’ll have
to drive,” because there is no fucking way I’m calling Jess for a ride, “and we
will have a wonderful time and not think about the shit-load of baggage we’ll
be dragging along. Deal?” I stick out my hand to shake
on it, ignoring the draft up my naughty bits. Spike looks at my hand like it’s grown oozing pustules or something, then crushes me
against him in a power smooch that makes my knees buckle.
“Deal.” He cocks his head at me like a bird and kisses
me again, oh so gently this time. The look in his eyes is strange and new to
me: he’s not amused or passionate or wicked. He looks like someone just bought
him an ice cream cone, like he’s never had ice cream before and he finds it to
be surprising and good. He looks delighted. An odd word for the undead, but
he’s an odd vampire.
In any case, he grabs the soggy bag off the floor and merrily heads for the
kitchen. I watch his ass. What am I supposed to be doing? Oh yeah, my pants,
I’m looking for my pants. Do not think about Spike’s pants. Nothing about
Spike, pants, and thinking, will lead to me getting dressed. Oh, god, I want to
be Spike’s pants. Yum.
My own jeans are toast. Really dirty toast. There’s a
reason people don’t look under the sofa, or at least under my sofa. Hell, I
certainly don’t want to know what’s under there. I stuff my dead jeans back
into their new home; maybe they’ll breed with the dust bunnies and bear a
litter of cut- offs. That would be cool. It could happen; this is the
Hellmouth, after all.
***
“Mother-fucking son-of-a-bitch! Aaaah!” It’s
really, really tempting to just kick the damned thing, to crush it’s shiny red plastic into itty bitty pieces. Too bad I’m
barefoot. I throw down the screwdriver, furious at the malice inherent in
selling people items that they have to put together at home. That does not make
the least bit of sense. And it’s evil. You buy something,
you expect to take that thing out of the box, not a fucking jigsaw puzzle. Not
that I bought the damned thing in the first place, but that’s so not the point.
Now is when I start banging my head on the floor.
Spike’s mellow laughter interrupts me just when I have a nice rhythm going.
That’s right, just stand there and enjoy the show, fiend from Hell. Snarl.
“You could help, you know!” I’m not whining; I’m not. I do not whine. Much.
“I could, I suppose. What would I be helping with?” He saunters over and oozes
onto the floor just outside my moat of Bissell-bits.
“I don’t know!” Okay, I am whining. But damn it, I’m allowed. “I have a
screwdriver, I have instructions, I have a potential
fucking home appliance for Christ’s sake! But I can’t get from potential to
actual!” Argh! I hate this. I can smoke, drink, vote, drive –well, not that I
do, but I could, legally again even, I think- and pay taxes, but “I can’t
fucking put together an appliance that is supposed to be genetically encoded!”
Resume head to floor action.
“Why do you even have a whatever-the-bloody-hell it is?” I stop my self- abuse
long enough to give him my ‘like, duh’ look, but he’s staring bemusedly at the
instructions. He’s ignoring my melodramatics, how rude! God, I’m such a
self-centered bitch. More head pounding. Are we detecting a theme here? A desperate-for-attention type theme? Yup.
It works, though. Spike doesn’t look up, but he does stretch out an arm to grab
the back of my shirt and nearly strangle me to death on my next descent.
“Gack!” Now he’s looking at me, when I’m all turning
blue and choking. Great. I feel better about myself by
the second. Irony sucks.
“What the fuck is a Bissell Power Steamer? You own a Bissell Power Steamer?” Oh
yeah, and I’m the crazy one? Who’s never heard of a Bissell, tough guy? Well, me until the Wicked Witch of the West showed up with it one
day. That’s a memory that will haunt me until I die. I yank away my collar and
gasp in enough air to answer him.
“My mother. Yes. Like a vacuum, I think, only wet.”
Frankly, I don’t think the Witch knew what it is either,
she just wandered a department store until someone got her to buy something.
She was probably told it was a motherly type housewarming gift by a
quick-witted salesperson. Hell, maybe it is, how would I know? I grew up with
her.
“Huh. Wet. Well, let’s get on with it then.” He’s so freaking strange. I like
it.
“Okay.” I’m sitting up; I can do this. We can do this. “What do you want to do:
screw or direct?” That so did not come out the way it sounded in my head.
But I love making him laugh. Meow.
He waggles his tongue at me: “You pick.” Oh god, there is no way to respond to
that. I feel like I’m back in high school. And it’s not complete torture this
time. Yup, I’m boning the captain of the football team, metaphorically, of
course. Whee! Still, some semblance of adult dignity should be maintained.
“I’ll read the instructions, you assemble.” That was good. A moment to switch
places, and we commence battle.
- - -
“No, the long screw goes in the back!”
“Bloody Hell, woman!”
- - -
“I can do it!”
“Christ on a crutch, just let me do it!”
- - -
“It says the U-ey shaped thingy should snap on. Snap on! You’re going to break
it!”
“I’m going to break your spindly neck, is what I’m going to do.”
- - -
“Hand tighten, you’re s’posed to hand tighten.”
“I am! Could you shut up for just one fucking second?”
- - -
“I told you so-” Mmph!
I think the stain is permanent. Oh god, yes. I wonder if there is someplace I
can return the Bissell-beast to without a receipt. Yeah, oh
yeah, okay, oooh. I’m not gonna be able to sit down for a week. Oh god
oh god oh god…
“Yes! Yes! Harder, Spike, harder!”
“That’s it, pet, ooooooh, so tight…”
***
“Spike?”
“Hmm?”
“Can I ask you a question?” I’ve been wondering this for awhile. Well,
not that long because it’s only been, what, four days?
“Depends. What do you want to know?” I like him like this, all heavy and relaxed, draped over me like the world’s
sexiest blanket.
“Why are we having so much sex?” No, really, I want to know. I’m no blushing
virgin, but this is a little weird. Not that I’m complaining or anything. I’m
just curious. Maybe if I know why, then I will know the rest, like how long. Or how much it will hurt later.
He’s looking right into my eyes, his own gaze wary. I try to explain, but this
is not the part I am good at. “I mean, I know that you’re dead sexy, pun
intended, and you’re freaking amazing in bed. And I like you. You’re nice in a
jackass kind of way, and you make me laugh. But besides all that, I mean, well,
why you? And why you, me?” Oh, that was coherent. I so
suck at this.
Now he just looks thoughtful. He stares at me for unnerving amount of time
before finally answering.
“I don’t know.” His face clouds up in a frown and he rolls off me. Propping
myself up on my elbow, I gaze back down at him. He doesn’t avoid my stare, but
he doesn’t look happy either. “I really don’t. It just… feels good.” He looks
past me. “I haven’t felt good in a while.” I’m not getting the emphasis here.
“What do you mean? I mean, I thought--”
“Nevermind. My turn to ask you a question.” He looks
at me seriously, his expression weighted with things I don’t understand.
“Okay.” Brace yourself, girlie: what could the vampire possibly want to know
about me? I no longer believe it’s just my blood type, but that only makes this
more confusing.
“Do you like me?” Well, that was unexpected. Blink. Blink blink-blink.
“Well, yeah? I just said so, didn’t I? And hello! I don’t sleep with just
anyone.” Hey, I may be an official slut now, but I retain my standards. My really, really high standards. The fact that my paramour
of choice is dead is completely irrelevant. As is the amount of alcohol consumed
over the course of this, ah… um… relationship thing-y.
“That’s why, then.” Spike pulls me down to his pretty, pretty lips. No more
thinking.
***
I’d like to make this a habit, I really would. Wake up every morning wrapped in
arms and legs, fingers tangled together. There is a false intimacy in the first
waking moment, a promise that has already been broken, not even made actually.
But I can’t help myself. I lie in bed a little longer, pretending that this is
real.
The sex is amazing, but strangely sad. I think it’s just me, though. I’m not an
innocent, and this is something else. I love you I’m sorry I don’t love you
forgive me I do I forgive you. This is not about me at all. This is about him
and about her; I’m just an interlude in G, that chick with the triangle in the
very back. The captain of the football team always ends up with the head
cheerleader, not some band geek. Shit. I am so pathetic. Even my metaphors
stink.
I peel myself out of his arms, and check the drapes. Don’t want to dust The Hottie.
My Hottie. Wobbly little baby steps to the dresser,
throw on clothes. Time to earn my drinking money. I
haven’t checked in since Thursday: not too unusual, but I should at least check
my email.
“Pet?” His eyes are slits of blue, curious and vulnerable. I tiptoe back to the
bed for a good morning kiss.
“It’s okay, I just have to check into work.” He’s so
beautiful: it breaks my heart. How could happy be so sad?
His sleepy smile turns into one of those evil smirks that already seem
familiar.
“Are you?” Huh? His hand burrows out from under the covers, finger tracing
across my chest from nipple to nipple. They stand obediently to attention.
“What?” I look down at my chest. Oh, god. The tee shirt: Rode Hard and Put Away
Wet. Did I mention a former incarnation as a metal-head? Guess not. Must’ve slipped my mind. His other hand is creeping
stealthily up the leg of my sweat-shorts. Okay, yeah, ironic.
“Truth in advertising, lover.” Obviously.
This is some creepy Freudian thing, isn’t it? Fuck. I have 10 million tee
shirts and this is what I put on. I wish I knew whether I hate my life or I
love my life. It’s getting hard to tell.
“Oh yeah, I’m all about truth. Oh god, Spike, no, I really have to--”
“Later.”
“Okay.” The man has the most amazing fingers. I could fall in love with him
just for those long, oh god, nimble fingers.
As soon as I acquiesce, he abandons my breasts to strip off my shorts and pull
me back onto the bed, straddling his erection through the duvet. I fight the
material for the privilege of wrapping myself around the length of him. Oh god
yes. He pulls me forward, until my nipples are level with his mouth and takes
his time, sucking one, then the other through my shirt while I rock my hips,
until I have two wet circles framing the hard knots.
We take our time, slowly undulating against each other, exploring with hands
and mouths. His eyes are so blue, so open. He does everything wholly,
completely engrossed in a single instant. Those liquid eyes are empty of
anything but the moment, what is happening right now. It is shattering and
frightening; for the first time I truly fear him. So little foresight: no
remorse, no sense memory for the past, or awareness of the future. I am
whimpering and writhing on his body, aware of his power over me, enjoying his
ascendance as much as my own pleasure. This is what a monster is, humanity
concentrated, reduced to the elemental in a demon’s crucible: hunger, pleasure,
pain.
He could kill me. He would enjoy it. He might be sorry afterwards, but he would
enjoy it as much as this.
My orgasm is soundless and violent.
***
Once again squeaky clean, I quietly make my way to the kitchen, trying not to
wake the sleeping vamp. Everything looks different. It’s as if the walls have
shifted slightly, the rooms expanding and contracting to accommodate his
presence. He’s somehow made my house his: cigarettes on the table with my keys,
ex-shirt thrown over a chair, boots in the corner. Familiar,
but strange.
I hesitate in the door of the kitchen, expecting to see Glinda welcoming me to
Oz, but nope, still my little breakfast nook. Just indefinably mussed, marked
by the signs of Spike’s presence. On the other hand, it suddenly looks like the
sort of room that might contain actual food. How exciting!
This is big big fun! Next time the Witch threatens to visit, I’m gonna ask for
food. Who knew that Pringles and what-the-fuck-are-Wheatabix could be so
thrilling? Ooooh, I have catsup and eggs and ew gross
I think that’s blood, and vampires drink Diet Coke? Grosser
than gross, carbonated water with aspartame. That’s even more disgusting
than blood. Back on track girlie, we’re on a mission here. Way
cool, cigarettes and a vast array of Hostess products. The boy has
taste. Coffee, Camels, and Zingers, breakfast of champions.
The chemicals surging through my bloodstream, while satisfying, are not
providing answers. I really should check into work, but there is a mystery
currently passed out in my bedroom. I want Spike, yeah, okay, but more than
that I want to understand Spike. I need to understand who and what he is; maybe
I know part of it, more than I should, but I want to know the rest. Fuck. If I
know it all, will it make any difference? Will he stay or will he go?
What do I do? Only one thing to do, really: go to work.
***
A man’s home may be his castle, but my office is my temple. Then again, I’m not
a guy. From the Descent of Inanna painstakingly Sharpie’d on the soundproof
walls, to the five networked PC’s, this is where I work and pray; this is where
work itself becomes prayer, an act of divine immanence.
The dry electrical air grounds me, marks the boundary between the gawky,
introverted Goth-girl and the competent mathematician. I cross over. Set my
coffee and a fresh pack of smokes next to the center terminal, begin the
familiar ritual: boot up, light up, select tunes. But instead of dialing in, I
stand here, staring at nothing, like a complete idiot. Lovely.
I really don’t want to do this. I don’t want to do this so badly that I’m
actually shaking and my stomach is somewhere around my ankles. Oh god no. I
don’t want to go there, I don’t want to dredge it all
up.
The bag is still where I remember it, stuffed into the top of the closet. I
haven’t looked at it since that night, avoided even thinking about it. I still
don’t know why I did it. I guess it’s like those women who freak out about
their purse when the building is on fire. I don’t know. I do know I bought
myself a new bag rather than face this one again. And here we are.
It’s heavy. How much did I stuff in here? What did I take? Closing my eyes, I
inhale deeply, in pink, out blue, and sink to the floor. Blind, I empty the
pack into my lap, feeling and hearing a rain of plastic cascade over my legs.
Don’t look, don’t look, don’t look. Look. Crap. There
must be a couple hundred diskettes, dozens of CDs. Some of them are stained,
some cracked, others coated in dried goo. Not blood, nope, full on denial mode
in gear. The labels are obscure, the private codes and shorthand of 20 or so
people, now mostly dead. The field agents fared better. They, at least, could
defend themselves, but we were like fish in a barrel.
A bright pink diskette, clean and unmarred, catches my eye, and I’m choking,
sobbing, memories surging to the surface of my mind. Jill, perky and wicked, bringing cupcakes for everyone on Gavin’s birthday,
horrible supermarket things with pink icing and round bits of confetti. We
licked the frosting off and threw the naked pastries around the lab, making
enough noise for a class of first graders. Gavin, who set up silly behavior
matrices based on the field agents reports, predicting which of the agents
would get laid, drunk, or just finally crack. Smuggling personal diskettes in,
Chiron Project’s out, playing at outwitting the brawn and the bureaucrats. Nothing
outside the lab was real to us, just data for simulations, even when those same
sims predicted disaster. We were all so stupid,
reporting dry projections, possibilities, margins of error, uncertainty of
outcome due to maximization of blah blah blah blah, always certain nothing bad
could ever actually happen. Not to us.
Maybe that was the impulse that fired me to try to save all this. Maybe I can
make up for it somehow, repay my karmic debt. Maybe I can find a way to keep
him. Fuck, don’t lie to yourself girlfriend; no matter
what I do, he’s not mine. Still, maybe. Shit goddamn hell fuck. I hate this. I
really, really hate this.
I have to know.
***
At some point I completely lost my grip on reality. Not like I haven’t done
that before, but still, I’m in my special place, where everything seems clear
and bright. I’m in The Zone. Only I don’t call it that out loud anymore, not
since that creepy Atkins guy stole my line. That put him right at the top of my
shit list, that’s for sure. Creepy ass pseudo scientists with their creepy ass
fad diets, yup, they are all on the list, and that Atkins dude head of the
line. With the libertarians, televangelists, SUV salesmen, and construction
workers who call women half their age ‘Mama’, I’m gonna have a busy retirement.
Hey, some people move out to the country, some get a condo in
Okay, so seven hours of coffee, cigarettes, and Ministry catches up with a
girl. Nonetheless, I can view today’s efforts with satisfaction. The bag of
diskettes is noticeably lighter, almost all the contents recoverable. I have
four terminals devoted entirely to running decision algorithms, but most
importantly, I have The Map. I like to name things.
The Map. My baby, my pride and joy.
The first real exercise of my particular art since the Chiron Project went up
in flames. It’s so pretty. Okay, it’s not pretty pretty, but I think it’s
beautiful.
It’s a symbolic representation of Spike, my new obsession. Everything he’s
done, every decision, every utility function I can identify, throughout the
time I’ve known him. And before, from the records I’ve retrieved so far about
his time in the Project. Subject 17. Oooh, baby.
The Post-Its and printouts cover most of one wall, a Scotch-taped homage to
calculus. I get teary just looking at it. I’m a complete and total freak. Math
is fun. These things are probably related. And Spike: The Hottie. An unliving, unbreathing, walking, talking, and most definitely
acting, avatar of Baye’s Law.
If I wasn’t in love with him before, I am now. The leprechaun can go fuck
herself. I’ve got the one who got away passed out in my bedroom and I am not
giving him back. Uh-uh. I’m going to do much better than that: I’m going to
give him choices. Lots and lots of choices.
Ew. After I shower again.
***
“Wake up wake up wake up Wake UP! Eeek!” He’s awake! And doesn’t like being tickled. Note to self.
“Dangerous animal here, pet. Could get hurt like
that.” Hmmm, not with that look, Hottie. That look
means a whole different kind of hurt. I wriggle against him,
just to watch his eyes darken to azure- it takes my breath away every time.
Stay focused Chiquita; we’re on a mission.
“No, Spike, we’re going on a date, damn it. Get up and get fancy!” Not quite
how I meant it to come out, but that happens to me a lot. Unhappy
rumblings from the evil undead. Oh no, don’t jilt me now, I promised a
date, and I even have an ulterior motive, like a real TV villain. No no no noooo! My life sucks.
“Exactly how ‘fancy’ do you expect me to get?” Oh, I get it. Heh.
Dooby- doo, no panicking here, nope, cool, calm and collected am I. Yes,
indeedy.
“The shower kind of fancy, for one. And I need to find
you a T-shirt. Black okay?” I hop off the bed and
start to head for the kitchen. More sugar, must have
more sugar.
He finally notices my outfit and stares. “Where are we going
for this date?”
“
“What?
I think not!” I can hear him finally getting up. Loudly.
Why do guys always have to make such a huge deal about waking up? Speaking from my vast amount of experience, of course.
“You think wrong. Oh, and I left you a clean toothbrush!” This is fun. I could
get used to this.
“I am not driving to Los fucking Angeles!”
Yeah, right.
***
“Tell me why I’m doing this again?”
“Because I’m the girl. And I’m paying.”
“Bloody hell.”
***
Spike seems pleasantly surprised. Shit, so am I: we’re holding haaaaa-ands.
It’s definitely pleasant. And the joint is literally jumping. Despite the
distance, we made really good time, and the pit is just getting hot.
I stop us just outside the fringe to check I’m good to go: 40’s laced tight, no
obvious handholds or snaggables, leathers worn enough to discourage
anti-tourist aggression. I’m ready to rumble. A glance at Spike’s face reveals
he’s excited and nervous, staring longingly at the heaving mass of bodies.
“Spike!” Just spit it out, you big geek, and pay the
piper later. This is about choices: you made yours,
let him make his. Choices suck.
“What?” I can barely hear him over the band, but he’ll be able to hear me fine.
“No one here that can zap you! You can’t hurt them!”
Will he get it?
“WHAT!” Oh, I heard that alright.
“You can’t hurt them! It’s why they’re here, get it? It’s why we’re here.” His
glare is angry, confused and suspicious, then utter glory washes over his face.
I feel like a brick has hit me. I could live off that look, eat it, breathe it,
and wallow in it.
He squeezes my hand tightly enough to bring tears to my eyes and throws us into
the mosh pit.
Glory Fucking Hallelujah, baby! Glory Hallelujah!
SERIES:
Bit Parts (4/4)
TITLE: Geeks Do Not Have Pedigrees
AUTHOR: Mint Witch
PAIRING: S/Ho Biscuit
RATING: NC-17, for smut, violence, language, and perfect punk rock resumes
SPOILERS: Through Hell’s Bells
DISCLAIMER: Please tell me you’re kidding
AUTHOR'S NOTE: At this point I have no idea what I’m doing or why, but I can’t
seem to stop.
DISTRIBUTION: If anyone wants this I may just faint dead away. But feel free to
ask, I could come to any second.
FEEDBACK: Give it to me baby, uh huh uh huh! Mintwitch@yahoo.com
WARNING: No sunshine, no puppies. Overcast skies and somebody nailed the
puppies to a church door.
***
Look at him go! Go baby go baby go! He’s fucking amazing: take no prisoners,
high speed, low drag, thrill kill cult. Visibly pushing his limits, he crackles
and throbs and gives off invisible sparks.
Christ, he gets me wet. And how.
I can’t take the crush as long as he can; periodically I have to escape for
some water, but I still watch him. I’ve been watching him for more than three
hours, and never once has he stopped, or even slowed down. His hair is a riot
of wet curls, his jeans soaked and clinging with sweat: his own or other’s, there’s no way to know. And he just keeps going and
going and…
Hey, he’s gone. Where’d he go? Oh god, where did he go? Fuck fuck fuck. Please
don’t be killing anyone, please please please.
This was a freaking dangerous idea. Make it worth it, Spike, come on, make it worth it. Fuck. This vampire, this man, is sentient:
he feels, he hurts, he loves, and he fucks. He fights and kills and he’s dead
and he’s so very alive. It’s his nature, dammit, as much a part of the world as
I am.
Could I handle that nature? Really? Do I want this
particular demon off his leash? What if I’m wrong? What then, dumb ass, what
then?
“Time to go.”
Oh, there he is. I guess he wants to leave. Nothing like being slung over
someone’s shoulder to get the point across. This cannot be good. Nope, I’m
thinking its piper paying time.
From my vantage point, the universe consists of Spike’s ass and an open bottle
of something brown that swings into view every once in a while. If I really
strain myself I could probably make pithy remarks about the ground. Oh, look,
the ground. Frankly, I personally am more interested in relearning how to
breathe. And noticing the rapidly diminishing level of liquid
in aforementioned bottle. Fuck. I’m guessing The Hottie is not happy.
Mood swing much?
A nifty little twitch and I land hard on the hood of a car, feet dangling.
Ouch. I think this is the feeling commonly described as terror-stricken. Or paralyzed by fear. Something like
that. In any case, I’m once again splayed out on a hard surface looking up at
Spike.
For his part, Spike is gazing down at me thoughtfully. His calm would be far
less frightening if he wasn’t all bumpy and fangy. And
drinking. Wonder where he got the bottle? Inane non-sequitors seem to be
my forte. This cannot be good.
Spike steps closer, right between my thighs, as he drains the rest of his
bottle and tosses it to crash somewhere out of my sight. Oh fuck.
“Tell me something, pet.” His voice is way too even. “Will the Captains
Courageous come running to the rescue if I do this?” His hands grip the waist
of my leathers and literally rip them down my hips.
“No? How ‘bout this then?” One hand presses firmly
against my abdomen as he shoves the fingers of the other into my cunt. Hard.
I can’t help the moan that tears from my mouth. He cocks his head at me
curiously and flexes his hand, forming a fist deep within.
This time I scream.
“Is this why you’re here, pet? Hmm? Will the chip go
off if I do this?” Using his sheathed fist, Spike lifts my hips a few inches
off the hood of the car and slams me back down.
I scream again.
“No? You’re not a Scoob, and you don’t feel” the clenched hand inside me twists
“like a farm boy, so I’m wondering” my world narrows and contracts, spots of
light dancing in my blackened vision. Far away, I can hear someone screaming
and crying; I feel tears running into my ears. There’s the ripping sound of
cloth tearing, and a hand is crushing my naked breast as the fist inside turns
and torques, knuckles working against the slick walls of my pussy. My orgasm
pulls me apart, shredding my thoughts, my flesh, and I come and come and come.
Distantly, I hear him growl, “What the bloody fuck is going on?”
Fuck if I know. I’m the wrong person to ask right now.
Spike wrings another howl out of me when he pulls out. There’s a rumbling
thunder underneath my sobs. It takes me a minute to realize that I am hearing
myself twitch and spasm against the metal. Fuck.
A rasp and hiss: Spike is lighting up. God I want a cigarette. Probably not possible for me at the moment. Is this what
lucid dreaming is like?
Spike’s voice underlies my mental ramble; I may eventually come down enough to
hear what he has to say. Someday. Not soon.
Spike is impatient. A quick sharp slap on my bruised tit snaps me to attention.
“Care to share why you’re sleeping with the enemy, cutie? Cuz I just can’t
figure out what you Initiative types get from this.”
My brain is in the next time zone, but a twisting pinch of my nipple arcs my
body into a bow and sets my mouth running.
“No, not Initiative, no such thing, stupid word, I don’t know, I just figured
it out today.” My voice is high and thin, alien in my own ears.
“Figured what out?” His human eyes bore down into mine, slicing through the
haze of pleasure pain.
“You! Chiron, you’re Seventeen, the breakout, all of
it. I told you: my dream.” I’m babbling, but my synapses aren’t quite
connecting. I’ve been stupid, stupid stupid stupid, god, always so smart, idea
girl. Bad idea girl.
Slap! “Stay with me here. Chiron: what’s that?”
“I told you, you’re him! Choices. The
Project. It’s biofeedback: chemicals,
adrenaline, seratonin, I don’t know! That wasn’t my part,
I was just a Grad student. Spike, please.” What does he want to hear? I can’t
think. “I’ll show you, okay? I can show you.” I can show him The Map, the
choices. Make him understand.
His voice is like ice, cold and hard.
“Can you take it out?”
Oh. The vampire cuts right to the point, dispelling the last lingering weakness
in my limbs. Pushing myself up, I fumble at my ruined clothes.
Spike isn’t good with avoidance. His hand shoots out and locks in my hair,
wrenching my head back, grating out the words as he repeats himself.
“Can you get it out?” I close my eyes for a brief second against the warmth
that licks through me. What is happening? I should be kicking and fighting, and
instead I want to sag into him and beg the vampire to hurt me just a little bit
more. The flush in my face betrays my thoughts and Spike looks pissed; he
shakes my head roughly.
“No” I whimper, my mouth languid, praying to him. Use
me Spike, do it again, I’ve never felt this before. I yield into his grip,
something deep within beating on the bars of its cage: wake up wake up wake up.
Was this what I wanted all along? To drown in the monster?
To give myself up to someone else?
No. No, this is not what I want. With my head still held hostage, I close my
eyes and reach down, fighting the soft glow of surrender. My life trickles
through mental fingertips stroking the sharp points of intellect.
My voice emerges of it’s own volition, chill and
clinical, rippling with that other me, the me that rejected a pink kidney
shaped pool life, the me that chose and still chooses.
“You are a vampire, Spike. That’s all you are and all you ever will be. But you
have choices. This is a choice. Will you break me or not. Will you love, or
will you hate. Will you live or die. I don’t have answers, Vampire. I have
questions; that’s what I do, what I am. That’s why we’re here.”
I yank my head around to face him and feel the rip of hair being torn out. The
pain threatens me again with the now familiar wave of weakness; it takes all I
have left to face him squarely. “You don’t love me. You never will. I just
wanted to know, to be certain. Now I do. That’s all.”
His summer eyes are shocked. The vulnerability in his gaze registers, but I’m
losing it. This night, these last few days, have been too much and my body
rebels. As my world fades to black, the last thing I see are his lips moving
soundlessly.
I don’t have to hear him. I know what he’s saying, what he’s thinking of.
“Buffy.”
Asshole.
***
The swim back to life is slow and sultry. I’m alone, tucked into my bed with
the Prez all prickly against my bruised flesh. Poking through my memories of
last night gives me no clue about how I got home. He’s in the house though. I
know how a house feels when you’re alone in it, and I know how this house feels
with him. This is definitely a someone-else-in-the-
house feeling.
I hurt all over. Really, my entire body is one giant ache. I keep my eyes
closed, fighting wakefulness until the scent of coffee, wonderful coffee,
seduces my nose. The edge of the bed sags: Spike.
“I’m sorry.” Play it again Sam. This time with feeling.
I don’t open my eyes. “You keep saying that, but I’m not really feeling it
right now, you know.” I can’t be bothered to modulate the bitterness in my
voice. Fuck you, evil fucking torch bearing asshole fiend from Hell. You hurt me, you really, really hurt me. Not just with the whole
sex-is- violence-Jane’s-Addiction bull shit, but all of it.
“Help me.”
My eyes snap open, and if daggers could shoot from pupils… well, that would be
cool.
“Help you? Help you! Why the fuck would I possibly want to help you, now?” Oh
yeah, I feel a good old-fashioned rant coming on. “Give me one fucking reason
why I should do anything except douse you with gasoline and set you the fuck on
fire!”
Somehow I’m kneeling on the bed, screeching at the top of my lungs. Who knew I
had such inner resources?
“I should stake you! I should cut off your head and rip out your spine. Help
you? Do you have any fucking idea how much I hate you right now? Do you? Do
you!”
He really doesn’t get it. Jesus Christ on roller-skates. Those blue eyes, so
innocently cruel, face as smooth as a baby.
“What? You got a seeing to, didn’t you?”
Holy shit, the vamp is so fucking clueless, I can’t
even begin to describe it. My arms rocket out, shoving him off the bed, my bed.
The cup he was holding goes airborne and coffee spews across the room. I fling
myself after him with a pillow in my hands, a meager weapon at best.
Nonetheless, I whack him a good one with its downy softness and keep whacking.
“Are you stupid? Because right now I’m thinking you’re a total moron! There is
no” whack “possible” whack “excuse” whack “for what you fucking” whack “did!”
Whack whack whack.
Spike evades the rampaging pillow and pulls me tight against his lean frame. “I
was there, luv, I know exactly what happened. You got off on it.” Smirk.
“That’s not the point!” I swear by all that’s holy, my voice should be breaking
glass. “The point is you could have just asked. I would have told you.” Maybe. “The point is you used sex as a weapon against me.
The point is… fuck, I don’t know.”
Dropping his arms, Spike steps away from me and runs his hands through his
hair, exuding frustration.
I give up. I just give up and walk away from him. I need coffee.
Spike appears in the kitchen a few minutes later with handful of broken pottery.
Throwing it in the trash, he ignores me, and heads back out with a roll of
paper towels. Huh. The evil undead fiend cleans up after himself. Or ourselves. Or me. Whatever. All very interesting, but I’m having coffee. Naked. Naked coffee. When did I reach
the point where I was comfortable having naked coffee with Spike around?
Screw it. I’m still sulking.
He returns with soggy paper towels and stares into the trash can for a while
before speaking. Since it’s unlikely the garbage will answer, it’s a good guess
he’s speaking to me.
“What do you want from me?” Good question.
“Nothing. Everything. Grow
up. Get a grip. I don’t know.” Brooding here. I finish
my coffee and stand up. “Spike.”
He won’t look at me.
“Spike!” Now he looks at me, all whipped puppy, and I
sigh. “Just meet me in my office, the door across from the bedroom, okay?” Whipped puppy nod. Shit. Time to get
dressed and deal with the amoral vampire. How do I end up in situations
like this? Oh yeah, I’m an idiot. I get another cup of coffee to take with me;
somehow, I have the feeling I’ll need it. I snag the box of Snowballs too. A
girl needs all the help she can get.
***
Spike and math are not mix-y. Big surprise. You
thought I was impulsive? Huh-uh. This guy redefines
ADD. I’m practically sobbing in defeat within minutes.
“Will this help me get the chip out or not.” But focused, nevertheless. Yes, I know I just contradicted
myself. Sue me.
“No, Spike, this is not about the chip, which for the billionth time is not a
chip.” Somebody kill me. The man’s mind is like a steel trap: it can only hold
one idea at a time.
“So how do I get the chip out?” Argh! I lose it. I really, really do.
“How the fuck should I know? You’re the demon, you figure it out. I’m sure there’s all sorts of oogly-mooglies that handle that sort of
shit. I don’t, okay? Are we clear on that? Any fucking
questions? That I can answer, I mean. Because frankly, I’m not seeing
you getting the big picture here, you know. So what if you get the fucking
‘chip’ out? What then? Will that get you your precious Buffy? I don’t think so.
No, Spike, this is where you fucking make a goddamned choice. Do you even want
it out? I’m thinking not. If you did, it would be done already. I think you
like it. I think you’ve lived with it so long it’s gotten good to you!”
Okay, did not see that one coming. Admittedly I was ranting, not paying proper
attention to the extremely dangerous creature I was ranting at, but most people
probably notice a fist heading at them before it connects with their jaw. Ouch.
Ouchie ouch ouch. However, the sight of Spike
clutching his head and squealing like a stuck pig consoles me immeasurably. Oh
yeah.
“See what I mean? You have no impulse control.” My face hurts. Ouchie. “You should have thought about the pain before you
dived off the deep end. How is that going to improve your love life? Tell me
Spike, I really want to know. What do you want?”
He sinks to the floor, still holding his skull together. When his baby blues
are finally able to focus on me, they are completely defenseless.
“I don’t know.” The whisper is barely audible. “I just can’t live like this
anymore.” His mouth quirks ironically on the word ‘live’ but I get it.
I settle next to him on the floor and stare at my feet.
“I don’t know either, Spike, I really don’t. Give me a couple of days to read
through the rest of it, okay? Maybe there’ll be something that can help. I
doubt it, but I’ll let you know if there is. Okay?”
The object of my desire looks at me intently and pushes himself
off the floor.
“I’ll see you tomorrow, pet.”
I shake my head at him, not moving to rise.
“Don’t call us, we’ll call you. Now get out.”
***
Baths are nice. Correction: baths are the best, the absolute bomb. There is
nothing that cannot be cured by a nice long bath with bubbles and squeaky toys.
I’ve never known a bath that didn’t supply inspiration by the time the water
gets cold and I’m all prune-y. Thank god this one is no different. The three
B’s of true inspiration: bed, bath, and bus. It’s time to get out and get to
work.
Packing.
There is no way I’m going to be able to give Spike what he thinks he wants.
Nope. And I’m way too besotted to not give into him and try my damnedest
anyway. He thinks he can’t live with a chip in his head? Well, I can’t live as
a handbag, or a punching bag, or a blow up doll. Or whatever.
I just can’t.
What I can do is run like hell.
The Map, the diskettes and CD-ROMs, my Hello Kitty clock,
books, a few clothes. There’s not much else in this house that I need or
care about. Except Teddy, he goes in a box. UPS will pick up the sum total of
my life in Sunnydull and have it at the ‘rents in three select days.
Smokes and random toiletries go in my bag. I call the Witch; she’ll have some
lackey take care of the rest. Oh yeah, this is familiar. I left
A bitchy impulse spurs me to leave a note taped to the door while my taxi
waits.
Spike:
P(T|E)= P(T) P(E|T) / P(E)
Kirsten
***
Oh yeah, baby. I’m a bad, bad pixie.
Finis.